Suddenly getting emo?

          Well, it should be only the fun thing to have during this holiday or should I call it study week instead? Never mind. I'm having so much fun lately but now something invade my mind and spoil my mood. Sometimes it hurt me and makes me feel I'm back to the old me. Maybe some people might think that I'm just perfect in the way I am but the truth is I'm not like what you all thinking. I might look like I'm full of confident but I'm NOT. Low profile is the best word to describe who I am. So, please stop jealous with me. I have nothing okay. ha ha ha..

          There are a lot of stories that you never knew about me. Everyone has the good and dark side inside themselves. But, how can I change myself to satisfy other people? People can easily talking crap about you. They maybe craving of what you have or they are just born to be hater. Just so you know, I'm totally a damn good person but not until you bitch me. You good I'm good, you no good you die. It's bad to be gemini. I think I have two people inside me. Once I switch to the other version of me, people start wondering what happens to me. You can call it a mood swing too. Wow! I feel bad of having this kind of attitude. I feel so sorry. I'm always trying to control my emotion and make it stable.

             Okay, that is what I'm feeling now. It comes out without any reasons. It happens all of a sudden. Yes, I'm having a mood swing because of the flashback of what already happened in the past. It's obviously I'm not perfect but I try to improve myself everyday. Adios ~

You and I ❤

You and I

The whispered secrets as I look at the clock
The sincere story in my heart
It’s okay if I am hurt
The more I am pushed, the better
Please call out my name

I’m afraid my heart will be revealed in between my hands
My heart is overwhelmed, it’s sad
Please wait a bit more and wait for me
You and I, we can’t be right now
I want to push on the clock even more but
In the future, which you will be in
Please call out my name

The times that I first peeped at
You and I, we were together
I like you, who plays with me
If I ask you, you like me too
What is my name?

In a blink of an eye, I’ll be an adult
I hope you recognize me, I hope you remember me
Yes that strange child
I really like your image that shines in between my hands

I turn it with my fingertips – hey clock hand, please run
Turn a little bit faster
I tightly close my two eyes and cast a spell
You and I, there’s only a little bit left
I don’t know when or what time
But in the future, which you will be in -
By any chance, if I get lost and wander,
So that I can recognize you,
Please call out my name

(Source: IU's "You & I".)

Every end of the day ❤

Never heard of any songs by IU before? or you don't even know who is IU? Just click on youtube's website and search for You & I sung by IU. I can guarantee you will fall in love with her. Her angelic voice is just so irresistible. Okay, I would like to share with you her new song which called "Every end of the day". Hope you enjoy it!! :D 

IU Every End of the Day (English Translation Lyrics)

Monday, Better day
A day that makes my heart rush like the first time
Sunday, Better day
A day when I think about you all day

I get greedy, wanting our relationship to get a bit closer
Just one step, that much closer
My monlogues, my whispers
You might be curious too

* It's because I like you
Even though I have on a cold face
My heart isn't like that, it's a lie
But foolish you makes me frustrated


** It's because I like you so much
Even though I have an indifferent face
I wait again and wonder what I should do
And at the end of the day, I say
I love you

One day, Holiday
A day that I really don't want to be by myself
One day, Cloudy day
A day where the sky is gray as if it's about to cry

Tears come, tears resembling my sad heart come
My heart that I've held back is flowing down all over the sky, all over the world
It's not just because I'm sad

* Repeat

** Repeat

My lips tell lies but
My eyes tell the words I really want to say
The words hidden inside my heart

It's because I like you a lot
Turn around and look at my slow paced footsteps
This is my heart that's waiting for you
If you've watched over me, you would know

It's because I don't know
Tell me so that I can hear your heart
I think it can work if you hold out your hand
But if the reason you hesitate is the same as mine
Please come to me now

(Source: http://infotaip.blogspot.com/2012/05/iu-every-end-of-day-english-translation.html )

Best Quote of the day!

I feel TIRED for being NICE. You'll see the DARK SIDE of me. I decide my personality but you determine my attitude toward you. - #MySweetCousin. Peace! I like your quote cousin, I feel the same way recently.

You go die!

Wait! What are you saying? Hey, I don't even care if you're going to die. You're already dead. R.I.P to you bitch, burn in hell!




FIGHTER - Xtina


After all that you put me through,
You think I'd despise you,
But in the end I wanna thank you,
'Cause you've made me that much stronger


Well I thought I knew you, thinkin' that you were true
Guess I, I couldn't trust called your bluff time is up
'Cause I've had enough
You were there by my side, always down for the ride
But your joy ride just came down in flames 'cause your greed sold me out in shame


After all of the stealing and cheating you probably think that I hold resentment for you
But uh uh, oh no, you're wrong
'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do, I wouldn't know
Just how capable I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you
'Cause it


Never saw it coming, all of your backstabbing
Just so you could cash in on a good thing before I'd realize your game
I heard you're going round playing the victim now
But don't even begin feeling I'm the one to blame
'Cause you dug your own grave
After all of the fights and the lies 'cause you're wanting to haunt me
But that won't work anymore, no more,
It's over
'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture
I wouldn't know how to be this way now and never back down
So I wanna say thank you
'Cause it


How could this man I thought I knew
Turn out to be unjust so cruel
Could only see the good in you
Pretend not to see the truth
You tried to hide your lies, disguise yourself
Through living in denial
But in the end you'll see
YOU WON'T STOP ME


I am a fighter and I
I ain't gonna stop
There is no turning back
I've had enough


You thought I would forget
But I remembered
'Cause I remembered
I remembered
You thought I would forget
I remembered
'Cause I remembered
I remembered


Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter 

Eyes Open

Recently I was amazed by an awesome soundtrack from "The Hunger Games" movie sung by Taylor Swift entitled "Eyes Open". The soundtrack can be related to what we've been through in reality. We must keep aware of what is going on because we never knew when will we fall down. Enough talking here, I will let you go through the lyric below and hopefully you'll get what I mean.

Everybody's waiting
Everybody's watching
Even when you're sleeping
Keep your ey-eyes open


The tricky thing
Is yesterday we were just children
Playing soldiers
Just pretending
Dreaming dreams with happy endings
In backyards, winning battles with our wooden swords
But now we've stepped into a cruel world
Where everybody stands and keeps score


Keep your eyes open


Everybody's waiting for you to breakdown
Everybody's watching to see the fallout
Even when you're sleeping, sleeping
Keep your ey-eyes open
Keep your ey-eyes open
Keep your ey-eyes open


So here you are, two steps ahead and staying on guard
Every lesson forms a new scar
They never thought you'd make it this far
But turn around (turn around), oh they've surrounded you
It's a showdown (showdown) and nobody comes to save you now
But you've got something they don't
Yeah you've got something they don't
You've just gotta keep your eyes open


Everybody's waiting for you to breakdown
Everybody's watching to see the fallout
Even when you're sleeping, sleeping
Keep your ey-eyes open
Keep your ey-eyes open
Keep your ey-eyes


Keep your feet ready
Heartbeat steady
Keep your eyes open
Keep your aim locked
The night goes dark
Keep your eyes open


(Keep your eyes open [4x])


Everybody's waiting for you to breakdown
Everybody's watching to see the fallout
Even when you're sleeping, sleeping


Keep your ey-eyes open
Keep your ey-eyes open
Keep your ey-eyes open
Keep your ey-eyes open
Keep your ey-eyes open

Lost

It might be true that we only feel the lost when someone is really gone in our life. Don't you think it was too late to realize? They probably got hurt for many times and be brave enough to leave you because they don't want to get hurt anymore. Sometimes we must look within ourselves. We can't 100% blame other on what he/she has done to us. It could be our own fault for not understanding the situation. Some people thought having conversation to solve any relationship problem is the best way but for me it just wasting time when one of us don't want to lose in the argument. Perhaps time will heal the wounds.

Hate U.

I don't know how to explain but until now I still hate that stupid bitch. The attitude really pisses me off. You selfish motha fucker! You're so ANNOYING. You deserve my middle finger and suck it bitch! okay bye ~ #AkuDahMeluat

I'm so stress!

Hell yeahhh I'm feel so stress this whole week! I mean like WTF. Trying hard to have a good time for myself and even I act like professional but it turned out to be a major failure. There is no single word can describe this complicated situation. At last, I leave it to God to solve it for me. I just can plan but God will decide. I really don't want to get mad because I might kill someone if I do. I'm worse than hulk if I got angry. Anyway, have you watch "The Avengers"? Personally the movie was so-so but I'd like some of the funny scenes. It's quite interesting but still can't beat the awesomeness of "Battleships"! I already ranked it as my top favorite movie this year. Besides, I'm going to watch "Dark Shadow" if I got time. I hope it will be worth my 10 ringgit to watch the movie. So, I put in trailer video of "Dark Shadow" below. So, that's it, I'm signing off now. Adios. ~

Life is tough

Life is tough for sure. I hate almost everything I did before. We all have choices but I never expected to be this hard at the end. Probably before I just picked the wrong decision. No regret because life isn't ends there. I just need to improve myself and keep move on. There's no turning back.

Don't act strong but be real strong. Alright, that's all for today! Sayonara ~